First Day of School

Dearest Fraser,

Yesterday you started school. Big school.  Reception!  To say I have been a little emotional over the last few weeks is a huge understatement - I have been over the top emotional whenever I think about you starting school.  I don't know what has come over me.  I have known that this day was coming for a very long time.

For months we have been planning for this day, trying to prepare you (and I).  We got you dressed in your smart green uniform (you refused to wear the blazer and I wasn't going to push it) I did your hair as best I could and off we went to your new school.  You were being really brave the whole way there but when the time came for parents to say 'goodbye' you broke down and cried and clung on to my leg, just as you have done since you were a baby.  So, I of course welled up and burst into tears and even little Caleb started getting upset that I was leaving his crying brother behind.  As we left Caleb kept saying 'Aw, Fraser, back!'.  I hung around outside peering in to your classroom window trying to catch a glimpse of you happily playing and eventually your teacher came out and said 'Mrs Norris he's absolutely fine now!' but I think she actually meant 'Shift it you crazy mum, he's fine!' :-)

You and I have always suffered from separation anxiety from each other.  You have always created and got upset when I've dropped you off at nursery (at just 10 months), preschool and now school.  Although you are so social, popular and have a great time when you are there - I don't think it's that you don't like school, I think it is just that you love your home comforts.  You still crawl in to our bed every night once Daddy and I are asleep and sleep in the middle of us and we're not about to put a stop to it as we know that you're only going to be little once and for such a short time.  

I can't believe how quickly the past four and a half years have gone and I cherish the time we have had together.  Especially when I was on maternity leave with you and it was just you and me, every day, all day together - I used to lay you on your blanket in the garden and you would gurgle and do the cutest little ninja moves whenever the wind blew the trees above you.  You got so excited, you were just the sweetest little baby.  It is so sad and so exciting at the same time that you are starting school and off on your next adventure, I just wish sometimes that you didn't have to grow up and you could stay little forever.  You are so innocent and I just hope Daddy and I have done a good enough job of building your confidence up so much that if any knocks do come your way that it doesn't keep you down for long.  

While you were at school, Caleb and I went shopping to get you some sweets and a Paw Patrol toy because you did so well.   You came running out of the gate shouting 'Mommy' and smiling with a 'Deputy Head Teachers Award' sticker on your uniform for being such a good listener.

Daddy and I couldn't be prouder of you, our handsome school boy! 

Love you,

Mommy xxx

Fraser's first day at preschool - he looks so little!  

Baby Fraser in the garden

 His little cute ninja moves when the trees move :-)